TIRED ... :"(

yo ! good evening ...


suddenly so many random things came to my mind ... hahahah XD


earlier ... ummm , well ok ... i'll just say it here .....

because i just want to say it OUT LOUD ! ,, because it's been stuck in my heart for the whole day !

ok i'll continue ...

earlier ... (I WON'T SAY ANY NAME) school starts ...


when it's our English subject (time) , my other classmate told me that i should go down stairs because i can see THE PERSON I MISS ... at first i didn't get what she said ...


at first person comes to my mind is "HIM" but when my another classmate told me that my ummm MY (EX) BEST FRIEND is down stairs ... first thing that comes to my mind ..

"I WANT TO SEE HER" ...


RECESS TIME ...

we all go downstairs , and i just peek on the gate of our school and saw THEM ... (HIM and HER)

i just peeked for almost 5 secs because .. I DON'T KNOW EITHER !! F*CK

don't know what to say !! ... *SPEECHLESS*


it's just i want to cry .. that's all what i'm thinking for the whole time until our class end .. ><


ok , i admit it ... IT JUST REALLY HURT TO SEE THEM TOGETHER .. even in the past , seeing them smiling , laughing , hearing them saying "I LOVE YOU " to each other .. well its just makes me happy also because i know that SHE HAVE A GUY THAT CAN TAKE CARE OF HER AND UNDERSTAND HER DESPITE OF HER ATTITUDES ..


but on the other side .. its just HURT ME SO MUCH ... TT____TT

but i don't have any choice BUT TO HIDE IT ... HIDE IT UNTIL THE RIGHT TIME COMES ...


and then i TEXTED HER ... and ask her about the school she will be entering in college .. but i didn't receive any response :"( i think she don't have any extra load to text me because i'm on the other network ..

so its ok for me .. :)


when i got home ... i ask my friend if she still talking to her (by text) and she said yes and suddenly she ask me "ARE YOU JEALOUS?"

i didn't answer her question ........ because I DON'T EITHER IF I'M JEALOUS OR ANGRY OR WHATEVER ! ...

suddenly while i'm thinking of her and him .. TEARS FELL IN MY EYES ... it just continue and continue until i fall asleep ..

i admit it , I REALLY MISS MY BEST FRIEND .. :(

the reason why i don't want to text her is because  I WANT HER TO TEXT ME AND ASK ME IF "HOW ARE YOU ?" "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" "HOW'S SCHOOL?" ...

and "I MISS YOU" ... because in my life i am the only one that always do that to her , i just want to know IF SHE REALLY THINK THAT I'M HER BEST FRIEND ..

even though sometimes , i know that she didn't trust me (OUCH TT___TT) but i just forget about that .. I LOOSE MY PRIDE BECAUSE OF HER .. every time we are fighting i am always the to make the first move so we can talk ...


TT____TT


I DON'T WANT TO WAIT ANYMORE FOR SOMETHING THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO HAPPEN !!!! ... ><

bahala ka na po lord ... :( kayo na po ang mag decision kng ano po ang dapat na mangyari .. kasi pagod na po ako ... pagod na po akong isipin ang mga bagay about sa kanila ...

*sob sob*

--- NANCIE ♥